It’s Only Money
March 9th, 2010 by markk
I think it’s funny that I am returning from a surgical mission overseas and my biggest problem is that I might run out of money before I get home! Never before have I had the opportunity to SPEND money on mission – nothing to buy, nowhere to go and not allowed to go even if there was. Amman was different. Between shopping excursions for food and drink to entertain my room-mates and neighbors; last minute expenses for taxis, Visa extensions and dinner in Paris; and a whirlwind tour of Aqaba…but I’m getting ahead of myself.
I’m writing this, the last Blog Installment of my MSF-France Mission for Iraq in Amman in the boarding lounge at Charles de Gaulle Airport. It’s just before 6 a.m. and my day is already three hours old. I had a bit of a “Senior Moment” when I set my alarm clock and failed to take into account the change in time-zones between Amman and Paris. So, I had an extra hour on-line waiting for my taxi to arrive at 04:30 <sigh>. It probably wouldn’t have mattered – I woke up an hour before my alarm was set anyway, but this explains why I never got the 4 a.m. wakeup call from the hotel desk…
I cheated a bit on my arrival time at the airport. I know the printout says, “…three hours in advance…” but I was certain there would be few flights this early in the day. Even the subway doesn’t start running until after 5:30 (thus one of the taxi charges – luckily he accepted VISA, otherwise I was going to have to pay him with a combination of US dollars, Euros and coins). Traffic was light (as expected) and we got to the airport at precisely 5 a.m. I did the electronic check-in and bag drop-off and was on my way to the gate at 05:10. I do love European airports. The long walk to the gate and security screening still took under 15 minutes. Charmed life, I keep saying!
My final week of work was fairly calm. The first Iraqi Anesthesiologist came back from vacation and the second left for his week off. Work was light again – MSF was putting on an Exhibition at the Cultural Centre, and the Queen came for a photo shoot with our surgeons (so all surgery was put on hold for the day).

Since, understandably, I wasn’t on the invitation list to meet the Queen, I filled my day giving lectures to various groups of nursing staff on acute and chronic pain management. No surprise that a large percentage of the patients in our program have persistent or chronic pain after being blown up. I stopped by the Exhibition the next day – it was a smaller version of the Refugee Camp in the City program which has been so successful touring Europe, the US and last summer, Western Canada. I found a photo in the display showing my Anesthesia Technician from Gaza last January, wearing the scrub hat I gave him on my departure – like I said before, it’s a small world! They are bringing the RCIC to Eastern Canada this spring, so if you happen to be in Waterloo or Montreal…

There are several Expats with experience in diving (or interest in traveling around Jordan on their weekends off). Unfortunately, due to a combination of weekend commitments and upcoming flights, no-one was able to join me on my last weekend traveling around Jordan. Grabbing the bull by the horns, I booked a bus ticket, hotel room and series of dives in Aqaba, and headed south out of Amman on Thursday evening. Thanks to my remaining travel companions (red wine and Gravol) I had a lovely sleep on the 5 hour trip and woke up refreshed and ready to party. The feeling wore off quickly, but I did have a chance to stroll the streets and experience some of the nightlife in Aqaba late Thursday. I found a great store selling fresh roasted & seasoned cashews, pistachios and a variety of other munchies so I loaded up for the weekend. As usual, I woke up before my alarm the next morning and after a huge “Jordanian Continental Breakfast” at the hotel, I wandered around the neighborhood again. By chance, I stumbled upon the dive shop I had booked with and arranged for two dives with all the equipment and trimmings – 25 JD per dive (ludicrously affordable after $100+US dives in the Caribbean and Mexico).
One bonus of diving in the Gulf of Aqaba is that transport to and from the dive site is by road instead of open skiff. I never have problems with motion sickness WHILE diving, but trips to and from in high chop make me regret (and on occasion, relive) breakfast. This time both dives were off the shore at the same public beach so I could spend my surface interval basking in the sun. Dive #1 was on the planned wreck (for reef development) of the “Cedar Pride” now covered in a variety of corals and filled with fish. We saw at least a dozen frilly Lion fish and half a dozen eels (two of which were in the open – a very uncommon experience on my previous dives). I was a bit disappointed…well actually, JEALOUS when we came up and heard another group had
seen a large Whale Shark swimming near the wreck. We must have missed it by just a few minutes! We made up for it on the second dive coming across a large sea-turtle which hovered nearby peacefully ignoring us.


It is common for surgeons and anesthesiologists to complete shorter missions than other MSF volunteers. Nevertheless, goodbyes were a bit sad for me. It’s always bitter-sweet leaving for home…I know I’ll miss the friends I met in the field, but I do look forward to my friends and (especially) family back home! Getting away from the noise is a benefit too – I probably won’t hear another car horn until the rodeo comes to town for the next Calgary Stampede. Unlike Gaza and Somalia, loud noises here have had innocent causes (mostly fireworks celebrating weddings and birthdays). I DID get a bit of a flashback walking home on my last day – the contrail might still have been made by an F-16, but at least it wasn’t going to strafe me as I lay soaking up the sun on the roof!


I certainly won’t miss the electrical connections, intermittent baseboard heating or maimed children – humans WILL continue being nasty to each other, I’m afraid…

Best wishes to my team members, especially the “Self-Professed Serial Monogomist”, the “Vegetarian Hiking Yoga Instructor” and the “Oklahoma Cheerleader”!
This week started out badly – we lost a patient (I’ll call her “Leila”), our first death since the project opened. All the staff, patients and families have been dealing with their grief ever since. Leila was very ill when she arrived from Iraq – in and out of ICU and suffering from severe leg infections. I looked after her a few times, providing sedation so the surgeons and nurses performed dressing changes. I was impressed by the compassion and skill of all the staff, taking care to minimize Leila’s pain. Frail and cachectic, she eventually succumbed to overwhelming infections resistant to the newest (and most expensive) antibiotics modern medicine has to offer. Her death has affected us all and provoked feelings of guilt and anger directed toward the government and armed forces responsible.












It really is like a small club of friends in MSF – everybody seems to know everybody! This week I discovered that our Psychiatrist worked with Elena (one of our psychologists in Gaza who also Blogs for MSF), Anne knows Michelle (Post-op Clinic Manager from Gaza), Debra was providing Anesthetics in the Sri Lanka project which I was originally hoping to join last summer, and Anne was working in the Yemen project (my alternate plan) which was suddenly closed, leaving me with the sad duty of golfing and fishing at the lake all of August.
As I mentioned last week, I was given a tour of the Hotel where patients remain during their convalescence. In the well-equipped Physiotherapy department, the staff has put up a poster demonstrating hand and finger movements (which I think is an ingenious maneuver to avoid confusing translations). I took a photo, partly for interest in the rehabilitation positions, but even more so for the title. You gotta love the French!
then makes a hard right toward the Israeli border with only the occasional speed bump to slow traffic down at rest-stops along the way. We arrived at the bus station which stands right between our hotel and the main gates and had checked in, unloaded our bags and made it through the gates before 11 a.m.


At low points, residual water from last week’s snow and rain formed pools which had to be leaped, skirted or (once) waded through. “Lonely Planet – Jordan” was quite positive about the route, but my “Rough Guide” advised against wading due to the water snakes… I guess I should have read that BEFORE the trip! Our companions left us at an obstruction made up of two boulders and a 3 m expanse of water – we reluctantly left them behind, realizing they would have to find an alternate route home at the end of the hike (as would we).
overtook us and we were invited by a lovely lady on donkey-back for après breakfast tea at her “shop”. I had to laugh when two young men in traditional Jordanian attire passed us while listening to Bob Marley on their portable Boom Box. The music matched their dreadlocks (and strangely enough, their long black shirts and baggy trousers) perfectly!

realized this was the first real hike I have been on while on any mission with MSF and I was especially grateful I brought good hiking boots. Up until now, I have been satisfied with my Birkenstocks, which fill the role of hiking boots, shower flip-flops, house slippers, and occasionally operating room clogs. I even hiked to the top of Red Mountain once or twice to pick Saskatoons, not to mention wading through the flooded O.T. Tent in Gaza last February…

preparations, 10-hour operations, shopping and cooking I now have full days. I even helped move a few cases of I.V. fluids around in the Pharmacy (now that I have pretty-much recovered from my New Year’s Eve hernia repair – I have been waiting for an opportunity to comment on the “comb-over” and self-imposed “Hemi-Brazilian”). Over-share alert!
First the Bad News – the heat went off in our apartment last week, so it remained 12 degrees in our bedrooms as well as in the common area. The Good News – it was corrected before the snow came on Thursday. It was brutally windy and cold for awhile, rattling the shutters in the middle of the night – it felt just like home! It snowed on & off for a couple days, but despite warnings and staff fears it never accumulated and it vanished rapidly when the sun came up.























